Tahoe . . . T-Bone . . . Towhee

Well, today we had to say goodbye to Tahoe after almost 10 years. Over the past week, he just looked so sick, the vet thought it was too much medications. But, after an ultrasound today, we found that he was hemorrhaging internally from his spleen which was most likely due to cancer that had spread to his liver.

We just got home from Costco, no I didn't buy a cake, now that I think about it maybe I should have. Anyways, it was sad to come inside and not have Tahoe here to greet me at the door. I feel bad that the last few months of his life were so rough on him, with living in the hotel and me losing my patience with him more often lately. Now, I realize it was probably because the cancer had spread to his brain and he just wasn't thinking clearly. Ryan and I were joking last week that I thought he was suffering from doggie alzheimers.

Even with all his seizures and trying to get them controlled over the years, he really was a good dog. He was so good with Lily from the first day we brought her home from the hospital. She's asked where he is and we told her he went to go play with Jillian up in the stars. While we were driving home from Costco she said, "Towhee is an angel now". I'm just so surprised on how much she really understands.

Love you SB . . . eat a big steak and go play with Jillian.

I can not wait for 2008 to be over with . . . what else can go wrong???

I Survived Today

I've been dreading today for the past month, it's Jillian's due date. I've almost survived the day, only 2 hours left. After a good cry in the shower this morning, we all piled into the car to head down to the statue and leave Gerber daisies at Jillian's memorial. Lily knew that we were planning on going to the zoo today, so when we arrive at the statue Lily says "Let's go to the zoo!" about 30 seconds after we arrived, nothing like a 2 year old to brighten the mood.

We then head on our way to the Cheyenne Mountain Zoo in Colorado Springs, about an hour from our house. We decided to go to the zoo because the day we found out Jillian's diagnosis we went to the zoo that afternoon. Although, we had never been to the Cheyenne Mountain Zoo. It's an amazing zoo built into the side of a mountain, not your typical zoo. You walk in and immediately are greeted by 19 giraffes ready for you to feed them a cracker. Lily was a little frightened on how large they were, but really wanted mom and dad to feed them. We were also able to pet a baby wallaby, Lily actually touched the baby and commented on how soft it was. The great thing about this zoo was how close you really got to get to the animals.

I had lunch at one of my favorite restaurants from Wisconsin, Culver's. They are famous for their Butter Burgers and custard. I've never seen a Culver's in Colorado, we may have to go to the zoo more often.

When we arrived home I was pleasantly surprised with a bouquet of Gerber daisies and a necklace from Jill. She's been such a wonderful person for me to lean on, such a blessing in my life.

Later that day, I received a call that my friend Jen and her husband Brian were heading to Nevada to pick up their son. Jen and Brian have been waiting to adopt a baby and were blessed today with the news. As Jill said, Jillian wanted me to have some joy today. I believe that is true! I then scrambled to get a few things together for Jen to take with her, Baby Bjorn, car seat, stroller and a infant travel bed.

I couldn't have asked for a better way to end today! Congrats to Jen and Brian, keep them in your prayers as they drive to Nevada tonight and for a save return home. I can't wait to meet Carson!